out with the old in with the new

Looking back on 2011 it's quite clear that this has been one of the most emotionally, physically, mentally challenging and exhausting years I've ever had. I was taking on quite a taxing load in school and was spending every free moment I had in the library or math lab studying and studying and studying some more. I was also trying to be as healthy as I could be so when I had a moment to spare from work and school I would visit the gym. This hardly left any time for play and when I get so over run with things I HAVE to do I start to rebel against them. This happened and my grades suffered... meh. I was hopelessly school girl crush giddy over a boy who I was pretty sure wasn't all that interested in me which of course only made me want him more. and more. and more. Some how, we ended up spending time together. My theory on the "why" it all got started is loneliness, this guy was lonely and we got along well enough as friends, we had similar interests and I'm not to shabby to look at. Mix that in with a dash of loneliness and Valentines day and you've got the makings of the disaster that was my love life for the year of 2011. I fell hard, I fell fast... end result.. I got burned. No need for gory details because this blog is already littered with them but suffice it to say it didn't bode well for me. So I've decided to try and completely let go because some people will likely keep repeating the same mistakes and continue to be miserable and I need to remove myself from trying to care about them and be there for them because it does me no good. Even though this wasn't the greatest year, I've had a few months to try and piece back together my demolished heart and I started to see the light at the end of a very long tunnel. I began to date again. Went on a few nice dates but nothing of significance until around November, one guy started to stand out above the others. Ended up he wasn't who I thought he was. Turns out he's the kind of guy who scours dating websites or personal ads looking for anyone who will pay a little bit of attention to him. Texting girl after girl after girl trying to fill some kind of void or maybe he's simply just a man-whore. There were no warning signs, no red flags, no buzzers going of indicating major douchey creeper, but a douche-tastic sack of poo is what he turned out to be. It's quite a shame too because I was starting to really REALLY like this guy. I'm glad I discovered what a waste of my time he was before it got too deep. I also learned that I shouldn't go snowboarding with Douche-tastic creeps ESPECIALLY on Sundays because you will only pay very dearly for it. I paid in the form of a broken back, something I don't recommend... avoid it if you can! I had the pleasurable experience *cue the sarcasm* of breaking my back in the beginning of December, I haven't decided if I want to write about the experience in detail because it was something that shook me to my core and has been both a blessing and a curse. I'm sure when I come out on the other side of it completely unscathed I might lean more towards blessing than curse but for now it is not all sunshine and rainbows. Breaking my back was by far the big ending to this year. I learned quickly who I can always rely on and who is far to self centered to be bothered to help someone in need. I've learned to never assume you know what kind of person someone is... give them enough time and they'll show you who they really are and then you can decide if they're worth it to work it out. I'm going to try to make this next year a lot better by taking the valuable lessons I've learned about myself and life and avoid the same mistakes ... lol =) yeaaaaaaah! BRING IT!