Valentines Shmalentines

I wish I was on vacation. I want to go somewhere warm, lets be honest I always want to be somewhere warm. I would be so happy if I lived somewhere that never got below 50. Sometimes this bitter cold that we have here feels like 1000 tiny little teeth biting at your skin, makes you lethargic, makes you want to hibernate under your covers... More than being on vacation I want to be on vacation with someone that is special to me, someone to share sweet tender moments with. Someone to kiss me on the forehead as a silent, sincere way of letting me know they love me. Reaching out as we're walking looking at whatever is around us and finding my hand and enveloping it with their own. Just being happy with someone who makes you feel electric inside. No I am not longing for this because Valentines day is literally hours away. I've never been big on Valentines day to begin with, never had someone that was important enough to me to feel the need to do something on Valentines day. I did have one Valentines day that ended with the start of a tumultuous relationship. That was when the charmer with the silver tongue and I began our little back and forth dance that lasted for longer than I care to remember. After a long day of work, serving others I got home and showered thinking I'd just crash and watch some TV but found myself hauling my guitar to his place after a few flirty texts back and forth. So I don't necessarily have a good track record when it comes to Valentines day. The girl in me though would love to have that stereo typical Valentines day where I get some cheesy flowers and something that sparkles... lol I've never gotten jewelry before as a Valentines gift and I think I've only ever gotten real jewelry from my Dad on my 18th birthday. I guess thats the kind of gift that you only get when the relationship is pretty serious... Never been in one serious enough to warrant something like that I guess. There is someone that I wish I could see on Valentines day or anyway actually for that matter! It hurts that I don't get to have him a part of my life on a daily basis. It's ridiculous how much I miss him! I miss talking to him the most. I miss sitting listening to music for hours sharing something that we're both passionate about. sigh...